Behind the Scenes of the Journey

Last week as I was sharing a new opportunity and a significant part of my journey with you all on social, it got me thinking that most of you don't know the whole story. There has been so much happening all at the same time, and you could very easily mistake that things are just falling into my lap.

So, I wanted to give you some realness, a behind-the-scenes of my journey. My journey through the winter season, where all the planting, grinding, and work happened to manifest all these beautiful things into my life.  

The winter season

I stumbled upon an old journal as I was packing my bag to head to an incredible opportunity to style and shoot for Winnebago RV for a national campaign. The fact that I was able to find it after a recent move with several things still in storage was a quiet reminder from the Universe. 

The first entry was from June 23rd, 2019, with three significant entries when I opened the journal. 

"I will be an executive coach for people with a lot of money." This was the first entry which was truly incredible to read. At the time, I was an executive coach; however, my clientele was not as affluent as the population I wanted to work with. I wanted to make sure my clients were aligned and had profound leadership, so that would trickle down. I am now an executive coach for that exact population. 

Next was "personal styling for high-end clients."

And the third entry was "modeling jobs that pay." I had done many free modeling jobs; however, when I found this journal the next day, I was modeling and styling for the Winnebego RV national campaign. 

It is completely crazy to see your manifestations come to life. However, I am not surprised. The Universe does not miss and will show up if it aligns with you. 

The darkness 

The part of the journey that I would like to share and bring some awareness to was 2 to 3 years before this, when I paused the momentum of my career to do a ton of inner work. I spent these years doing deep, dark shadow work, working through and processing years of trauma. 

I look back now and think of how sorry I am for the child version of me, but also for me five years ago when I lived in a scarce mindset, and I feel sorry for not being there for her. 

But, I put in the time and worked through those triggers and the lack of self-worth that had me believing I was unworthy of my desires. I am incredibly grateful for that time spent pivoting, understanding, and creating a relationship with myself. 

Had I not taken the time to go through the pain, the unlearning, attachments, and the deep dive into my soul, I know I would not be doing the amazing things that I am doing right now. I would not have the communities, and I would have many blocks to my blessings. 

I had to do free work to build my name and create relationships within the industry. I wanted to show agencies and photographers my abilities, how fun I was to work with, and the energy I would bring to the set. Now I am getting paid well to do these types of jobs. 

While I did free work, I worked several jobs to live. I hustled and worked side gigs, but gigs that still meant something to me and my story. So, if you're in a spot where you need to work more, put your efforts into something that you're passionate about and will have significance to your journey. 

It is not always true that you have to do free work; however, I needed to build trusting relationships with people. Rather than thinking you're doing something that isn't paying well, think of it as mentorship, internship, or creating a beautiful relationship. A lot of what I am doing now is because of connections I cultivated years ago. 

So, let this be a lesson not to block your blessings, do the inner work, cultivate relationships, be authentic, do the things for free, and it will turn out to be amazing later. 

Sit in the darkness for a little bit, develop a beautiful relationship with yourself, love yourself, understand your worth, and you will be able to shine so much brighter on the other side. 

The reward is so worth it; you are so worth it. So treat yourself here and take care of that inner part so you manifest and can call in all the things that are already on the way to you; don't prolong the landing of those blessings. 

This is the real; these things didn't happen overnight; it took a lot of intentional work. You can listen further over on the podcast to my most recent episode here. 

I rise, You rise.